Lexapro or Not

Ok everyone-sorry but i've had a few days away-nothing major-just busy. I've somewhat decided to possibly get away from my Lexapro. Its expensive and i hate the side effects. But its scary because i don't wanna all of a sudden be without anything. The last thing is to take a dive and then all the darkness will surround me. I wonder often is it a crutch. Maybe my mind just tells me i need it. Something for me to think about for a few days.....